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Twilight [Oct. 9th, 2008|08:06 am]
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(no subject) [May. 29th, 2008|07:55 am]
I've decided that my journal is too negitive, so I'm going to post something happy!

I'm in Disneyworld!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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(no subject) [Apr. 17th, 2008|03:00 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]

I feel like the only time I post here is when I'm seriously upset.  I just need someway to vent and I can't talk to real people.  I hate the way I feel right now.  I have 31 days left until I graduate, and I feel as though my life is just falling apart.  I have a friend whose been angry with me since Sunday.  I thought I knew the reason.  I was angry to about the way she handled the situation.  I sent her a message on Facebook with an apology, and saying basically lets just forget the whole thing.  Which I did, since that's just the way I am...I get over stuff and don't let little unimportant things ruin my life and my happiness.  She responded saying she was sorry too and it was overly stressed and snapped, but that she was going to be busy the next few days.  Me, being the idiot that I apparently am, figure that that's that, and the argument would be dropped and life would go on. 

Well I guess I was wrong.  The next day at lunch I tried to make polite conversation, inquire about a test she had, ask something about an interest we both share.  I'm am treated with coldness and the bare minimum of a response.  Since then she has completely ignored me.  I sent her a message today about Criminal Minds, since she was the one who started me watching it in the first place and there was a new message last night.  I also asked her why she was treating me as though she suddenly hated me.  Her response was that she's sorry and its not me, but she needs "TIME ALONE" (caps were her's) and that my "pushing" her was "very bad" and just made things worse. 

This really pisses me off.  I have said NOTHING beyond hello to her since Monday.  She also said that she doesn't want to tell me why she's upset, but if i want to know I can ask someone else to ask her and she'll tell them and then they can tell me.  Which I think is the stupidest things I've ever heard.  She's causing all this completely bull-shit drama that I really don't want to have to deal with my last month of College.  This should be the best time of my life, and yet the past week I've felt absolutely horrible. 

This is a person who I considered to be one of my best friends here, and to suddenly be treated in this way is the worst feeling in the world.  Its a beautiful day...I should be sitting outside reading a book and enjoying the sunshine.  Instead I spent 20 minutes collapsed on my bedroom floor sobbing uncontrollably, and another 20 minutes sitting at my computer with tears streaming down my face as I type this.  I hate being like this and I just want it all to be over.  This last month of College should be wonderful.  I don't want to remember it as one of the worst points in my life.  I don't want to spend part of every day in tears.

I don't know what to do.  I'm not the kind of person to sit idly by while one of my best friendships disintegrates, but obviously she is.  I'm sad, and it hurts.
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Some Stuff. [Feb. 18th, 2007|10:55 am]
So, I;m sure no one will read this, but I made some things cause I was bored and I figure I'd post them here in case anyone happens to accidently stumble across this page.

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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2007|11:57 am]
[mood |creative]

I really should post here more, but I don't really think anyone cares that much about me...Anyway, I've been in Disney World for just over a month now. I'm really enjoying myself. Its a lot of work and not a lot of pay, but its a good experience. Seriously, what other job could you have that you want to go hang out at work on your days off. I'm working at the Land in attractions. Its fun; we might not the most exciting of attractions, and the majority of people who come in the building are looking for Soarin' but still the people I work with are interesting and its a good time. Oh, and I found Adam Pascal's cd Model Prisoner at the Virgin Music Megastore in Downtown Disney. I was so excited...That CD is out of print and it was completely random that I managed to find it. I was actually looking for The Drowsy Chaperone cast recording (which, by the way, they didn't have) and there it was. It was pretty great. I also found the Backstreet Boys greatest hits Asia Edition CD, again completely random. Anywho, life is pretty good and i gotta get ready for work.
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Why do people suck?! [Dec. 13th, 2006|05:20 pm]
So, I really should be studying right now, but I can't. I was studying just fine...Then one of my friends IMs me and asks me something about something that someone else told him I said. Basically I've been the librarian of my schools Gamer's Guild for 3 semesters, and next semester I'm going to be doing the Walt Disney World college program, so I'm not going to be able to carry on as an officer. Our last meeting was Friday and I informed the President that I didn't have an inventory of all of our games and stuff because someone else had helped me with it last year and she never gave me her half of the list. (There is alot of controversy surrounding this person. She's a friend of mine, but there was an incident that occured last year, the details of which are very complicated. Suffice it to say that she is no longer a member of the guild. After she had already been kicked out of the guild, our entire inventory was moved to a locked closet, and I, as librarian, was given the combo.) Well, MR. PRESIDENT, took this to mean that I had done a more recent inventory and had given her the combo to the closet...he basiclly told my friend, who was president last year, that I said my friend has the list and "good luck getting it back or do it your self." So his response was, without telling me anything about it, to go out and buy a new key lock. He naturally assumed that I was just giving out the combo to everyone and that I was completely untrustworthy and a horrible person...he actually used the phrase "stabbed us in the back". It really pisses me off that he can be such of an ass, and think something like that about me without telling me to my face. It really sucks!!! I've always thought he wasn't that good of a president, but to say something like that to one of my best friends was a completely jack ass move. Maybe he should take his head out of his but and pay attention to what is going on around him. He'd realize that he's lost several former loyal members...that they just stopped showing up because they don't care to play Smash Brothers every other meeting. The guild used to be a fun place, we'd do party games and board games and card games and it had a very comunal feeling. This semseter, especially, the guild began to splinter and its felt like a place where I'm not really wanted, where I'm on the outside. I'm really glad I'm going to Disney, just to get away from all the crap that I have to deal with here. My friend, the former president, keeps telling me that I should have accepted the presidency when he offered it to me last year and than maybe things would be different, but I knew back then that I really wanted to do this Disney program and didn't think it would be fair to the guild to say yes then leave halfway through the year. Times like now I almost wish I had said yes...Our current President can hold a grudge and can be very prejudiced against anyone. I think thats why he so easily suspected me, because I'm still friends with the person who was kicked out of the guild. He's a jerk...I'm really pissed off because now I can't concentrate on my studying and I have a final in less than 3 hours.

I'm sure noone will read this, but I just needed to vent and there isn't anyone around. If anyone actually does read this, thanks for listening to my annoyed ranting. Now I've got to stop crying and get back to studying.
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Well [Dec. 1st, 2006|03:09 pm]
So, I have this livejournal thing, but I almost never post anything here. I guess I feel like Noone would really care about what I have to say. I've decided that I'm going to try to start to write more. I really am. :) Well, at least I am now cause I've got a paper due in 3 hours and I'm no where near done, but I still don't want to write. Oh well, nothing is really going on in my life, the semester is coming to a close and i'm totally overloaded with work. In 2 weeks it'll all be over, and in a little over a month I'll be going to Disney World! I'm really looking forward to that. I think the Disney College Program is going to be a great opportunity for me. Yipee!!! Oh well, I'll write more later, gotta go finish my paper.
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